This Christmas is upon us, after all the happenings of the fall that felled tall trees and drought descended on our area, it seems. There is space for rejoicing in the small things, since the bigger things don’t seem to be falling into place in my small mind… So, I am grateful that I remember my sweet dog Rusty who passed a year ago. I consider with gratitude that another busy season in our family business has come and is still going. I look with joy on the many times I didn’t say what would make things worse, and with regret on what I did say that did.
Letting go of what is or isn’t a miracle today is one of the themes I have noticed during the past year, as I reflect on it. Describing my attitude, actions, and acceptance could take quite a few entries here, so I’ll spread it out over time. Grappling with the daily anxiety of living while waiting has been challenging, and even rewarding, in the new ways I can see now to do when in the throws of those times. I have been waiting for others to come home, to get in touch, to call back, to respond, to send payment, to agree to terms, to be clear. The real way to look at this though is to take the power back by realizing I am the one who can do something constructive with every period of waiting time, whether it’s 10 minutes or many hours, or even days & weeks. The gratitude of seeing that I have choices to make and plans to put down and tasks to fulfill on my terms for my purposes is very freeing. This is the stuff that lives are made of, greatness in the small things, and I am a part of it.
I choose to continue in this path and am grateful that I see this more clearly today. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays and Wonder New Year wishes! There is so much to be grateful for now.